my daily reflections…

what i know best is that i am an alcoholic. recovery has provided me the tools to look into my life and explore what makes me an alcoholic. today i am sold on what this program has to offer me as a way away from alcoholism. though i know i may never be cured, ive learned what to do when the pressures of life become too much and there seems no way out. the other night i went to a concert. i had a great time. people all around me were drinkin and raisin hell, havin a good time. none of it bothered me, i sang and danced alongside em. durin the headliners show, a band member from the openin band came and stood right next to us. i asked if my gf and i could get a picture with him. he said sure and we snapped the selfie. as we talked, he asked what bars would be open. i told him i wouldnt know, that he would have to ask another one of the people at the concert. then he asked us to do a shot of whiskey with him. i told him that i didnt drink, that i had quit drinkin many years ago. he said awesome, our lead singer quit drinkin too. when the rest of us hit a shot of whiskey, he, the lead singer, hits a club soda in celebration with the rest of the band. the dude said, you can just do like our lead singer does, hit a club soda with me. he walked up to the bar, and we slowly walked up behind divertin away from the bar and the other band members that were there. on the way home i thought much about what had happened. i thanked God for my recovery even though there was a part of me wishin i wasnt an alcoholic so we could have stayed and partied with the bands. i mean, how many kick ass rockin concerts have any of ya’ll been to where one of the band members invites ya to party with both bands after the show? ive met lots of rock stars and hung out backstage with lots of major bands in my time, but last night i was wishin i wasnt an alcoholic and thankful i knew i was at the same time. what i know best is that after over 16 and a half years, im still an alcoholic. im blessed with my recovery and wouldnt change what i have today for anythin. i could have changed everything in my life last night with just one drink, but, with my HP and recovery, i persevered. 1 day @ a time...