my daily reflections…

the personal work ive done, with my HPs help, while in recovery, usin its spiritual guidelines, have provided me with an unshakeable foundation when i choose to apply what i have learned. there are actions i must do on a daily basis if i want to keep the gift i have discovered through recovery. many of these activities may be actions or behaviors that may come easily for others because they have done them throughout their lives. but for me, havin used self-will to get through a vast majority of my life, are patterns of behavior and thinkin that i must continue to whet each day. im given the choice each mornin before i start my day to do what i have done for the past 16+ years or do what my inner most self thinks will be better. for me today, doin what recovery has taught me to do, are still new to me and as i make them habit, they continue to grow within becomin 1st nature, not 2nd nature or a passin whim. they have proven themselves out as my life and recovery evolves, and are becomin activities that if not done, make me feel all weird inside nstuff. self-examination, prayer, and meditation have become daily disciplines that i dont feel i can do without. with them i can do things that i never did before. i dont have to live without initiative or ambition. i can get up the steam to start livin life with them. i aint gotta let shit slide. when i was out doin my dirt, i was too disillusioned to even comb my hair. with the daily disciplines recovery has taught me to do, i can now do somethin that has meanin for me and may offer another meanin too. and today, im content with the happiness that comes when i do the right thing. i get to make the choice to be positive, developin healthy creativity in my life. i get to welcome all the events that happen in my life each day, as His will. i can live with a connection to the world with others, myself, nature, and the unknown universe. but it also involves a belief in somethin that cannot ever be fully explained with words: God, my HP, and spirit. this self-care/individuality provides a knowin, a sense of bein more than any definition. i want the gift of an untroubled mind, so while livin my recovery and enjoyin sobriety today, i must remain disciplined so i can be spiritually aware. 1 day @ a time...