my daily reflections…

spiritual awareness happens for me when i communicate openly with my HP. its how i grow my relationship with Him. He doesnt have to be anyones conception but my own. i was raised in a religious home and still believe in my religious teachins as a young un. i can say today, in recovery, that even though i use the teachins i learned as a young un, the God of my understandin is not the same as the one of my youth. recovery has given me a much broader and spiritual understandin and i choose to use what i understand today as my HP. i still may follow rules and have beliefs that i learned as a child, but today i do not hold myself to the stringent religious doctrine or dogma from then. prayer and meditation are how i communicate with my HP, but it is not the only way He communicates with me. He comes to me through the people i interact with throughout each day. He comes to me as i live amongst the world. He comes to me as i have times of contemplation. He comes to me as i continue to go with the flow of my life. it is an effort on my behalf to consciously try to let Gods power act through me. when i let Him work through me, usin humility, i am open to His intuitive voice within so long as i dont throw blocks up which keep His power from me. when i practice gratitude every day, i get to live with the wonderful knowledge that i can bring more joy in my life through simple acts of willingness. bein aware of the healthy boundaries i have set in place as a result of the work ive done in my recovery, i get to celebrate my ability to know where i stand in relation to others, self, and my HP. as i go with the flow, i no longer need to give myself away in bits and pieces; i know now what it is to feel whole with His connection. lettin loose of self-will, willin to place God first, i dont deprive myself of His will. i can accept His biddin and just go with the flow He provides. i simply cannot do His will my way. dependence on Gods guidance is my chief source of strength. 1 day @ a time...