my daily reflections…

early in my recovery i tried to start my day without takin the time to connect with my HP through spiritual readins, prayer, or meditation. the times i did this, my day didnt go too well. with those lessons not forgotten, today i start each day with the precedin. what this does for me is give me a daily reprieve because i have already started maintainin my spiritual condition. and just because i may have started my day as such, i dont get to keep the spiritual awareness ive gleaned unless i continue to practice it throughout my day. idk bout anybody else but this is how it works for me. i must try to live what i have learned through an intuitive time with my HP and pass it along through the action of my day. before my recovery began i used to be one of those guys that knew shit. someone would say somethin to me and i would answer back, “yeah, i know.” well recovery asked me, as i began livin it as best as i could, if ya already knew all that shit, why didnt ya do it? recovery showed me why through its personal inventorys. it was because i lived by self-propulsion. i didnt try to pray or meditate before my recovery began, because i already knew it all. and ya can guess just how my days went too. well, today, i live a lil differently. i live as i described, tryin to maintain my spiritual condition. when i live in accordance with recoverys guidance as i perceive my HPs will is, i get to feel the strength of it. if i want to go back to the days before my recovery began and remain a victim of joel, my alcoholism, all i gotta do is stop doin what has kept me from bein invariably angry and resentful, not healthfully expressin and dealin with my inner emotions. but i aint down with that shit today. by contrast, i choose to live the adventure into self, greetin the new day with enthusiasm and energy, discoverin the spiritual awareness of God in my life. the inestimable value of daily maintenance allows me to be courageous enough to seek growth through self-examination and self-improvement. if i remain honest, open-minded, and willin, the program will enable me to rid myself of my self-deceptive attitudes and character flaws that for so long prevented me from growin into the kind of person i want to be. the power behind me, daily maintenance, is much greater than any fear in front of me. the communion i have with my HP has proven this to me. 1 day @ a time...