my daily reflections…

the thing that i like about the st francis prayer/11th step prayer is that it asks my HP to help me live the characters of recovery that make recovery so effective, givin my life in recovery purpose. it isnt about receivin, its all about givin. its been my experience that when i give the spiritual principles of recovery, w/out expectation of return, i receive them tenfold. my recovery has shown me, even more so, taught me, how the life i lived before my recovery began was all about what i could get w/out doin much to get it. how my quest for material, emotional, or physical attention was an attempt to fulfill a void within, and no matter how much of any of it i took, i could never fill that hole. selfishness turned into loneliness, loneliness turned into anger, anger turned into hate, hate turned into self-pity, self-pity turned into selfishness, so the cycle could never be complete continuin to revolve w/out rationale, turnin into an exhaustive search for self-acceptance and inner peace of mind. livin a life of all get and no give, is a very hurtful existence ive learned. what ive experienced in my recovery, is that when i step out of self and seek to be of service, in what ev manner that may be, i get to live with a happiness that flows outward to all i interact with. it is a smile and offer of unconditional forgiveness, hope, and love, that recreates the spiritual awareness i receive in my mornin prayer & meditation. as i have grown into bein more comfortable in my way of livin, i get to feel more at home and at peace within myself. trust in self is somethin i dont have to seek because it is shown to me through others as i grow my spirituality interactin with em. i can forgive myself for yesterday and look forward to the healin that comes today. the more i practice givin the 11th step prayers character assets, the more they grow, strengthenin my spiritual awareness, enhancin my relationship with my HP, others, and myself. surrender of self has been rewardin. im no longer an empty shell of a human. 1 day @ a time...