my daily reflections…

when i remember gratitude for what ive been gifted, i get an opportunity for success in my recovery and my life. it was gratitude in action that i seen from those who came in before me that attracted me to wantin to dig in and find out how and why my sponsor and others had what they had. though judges and others tried to promote a program of recovery for me, it was the life i seen others livin that drove me toward findin out what within me caused me to react to alcohol like i did. i desperately wanted what they had. they smiled, they were happy from within, outward, and it most def showed. and it didnt take alcohol or other substances for them to feel the way they did, like either had for me. they didnt seem to feel the pain i had felt for so much of my life. and if they did, it didnt seem to bother them anymore. i had to have what they had! i wanted to proclaim the liberty of spirituality they were showin me they had. i had to surrender, i had to learn to tolerate me, and i had to accept that it was i who had brought me to the place i was. as i watched the spirituality they had bring people together with a sincere respect for each other, i started to emulate their actions. their spirituality was the key that opened the freedom they had. today, so many years later, i get to affirm a freedom that is inclusive, just like i had seen others do in my early recovery. i get to practice my spirituality as i interact with others, just like i had seen others do. as human as i am today, i can live through lifes chaos and remain sober and in recovery. whether with friends, at school, or at home, i can find reasons for sadness or anger as easily as for laughter. in every part of my life, im offered just what i need for growth so i can live the attraction of recovery. bein the best i know how to be, doesnt mean ill escape confusion or pain. through the troublin times i learn to trust in my HP; i learn patience; i learn to let go and let God decide outcomes. the troublin times offer me growth and serenity, my keys to happiness. i can show the promotion of recovery through the gratitude i enact. facin all, intuitively trustin him, ive learned that faith isnt believin that God can, but that He will. this is what i seen others do when i came into the rooms; this is what i get to do today. 1 day @ a time...