my daily reflections…

bein in recovery is somethin that i hold dear to my heart. it is a gift i understand today i cannot live without. when i first came into the rooms i didnt know if what recovery offered would work for me. i cant say i remember if others knew i was tryin somethin different than i ever had before if it bothered me. i imagine for some it is somethin they want to try to hide, but for me, back then, i dont think it mattered much to me. hell mannn, everybody knew the person i had become, the lifestyle i had lived, so what would make the difference if they knew i was in recovery or not. even as this is how i feel about it, it doesnt give me any right to announce anothers name and say they are alcoholic or in recovery. i feel that is their own personal affair. so, as ive stated many times before, i dont care if people know im in recovery and attend meetins to help me maintain my sobriety. as long as i aint doin my dirt, harmin others or myself, and tryin to live as i perceive my HP wants me to live, it just doesnt matter to me if people know. love, concern, and trust are all aspects of my recovery today, and none of this is complicated as long as i keep it all in the forefront of my mind. its what recovery has taught me to do. offer unconditional forgiveness, hope, and love as much as i humanly can. none of the spiritual principles in recovery are complicated theory. rather, to me, they represent feelins and ideas that make me want to live my best life. they are emotional responses to my life. when i live with nobility, i demonstrate love as a response to the many happenins in my life. i can detach with love and still be a healthy human, offerin compassion, understandin, and empathy. the most helpful thing i can do for someone is to listen and care, not throw them under the bus of social stigma by callin em out for their attempts at recovery. i can pass on what ive learned to others who want and need it badly, because i have a sense of duty to others and myself, it is a pleasure, i get to pay my debts, and every time i do, i get a little more insurance for myself against another 1st drink. 1 day @ a time...