my daily reflections…

as ive lived my recovery over the past years, i can say that i have had several spiritual awakenins. i feel like the best ive received is the reality of who and what i am through the process of steps 4 through 9. there was so much i didnt know about myself when i completed them the first time through the steps. and they havent stopped revealin even more. as ive reworked them and continue to use them when problems in my life arise, i get to learn more about myself. not everythin i like, however when i use all the steps as needed for the things i find i dont like, i get to grow in surrender, tolerance, and acceptance. this further grows my willingness and humility. i also get to use hope and faith that what i cannot do, my HP will provide me the courage to grow in integrity. as i progress forward, i get to find love for self, increasin the understandin that i must use love for others. perseverin even further, i get to use compassion and empathy when the justice of what ive learned needs to transpire. each of the things ive mentioned allow me to develop and increase the spiritual awareness i need so i may be even more humble. recovery is such a gift in that it continues to give. just as in the readin, “how it works”, returns to a, b, & c, i get to return to step 1 and learn how i can proceed through the steps again. i get to resume strivin to be the kind of person that God would have me be. the “ah-ha” moments i may have missed prior, come alive and take on a deeper meanin. havin gained the concept of spiritual awareness and havin practiced the steps doesnt mean that i can become complacent thinkin i have the intelligence to overcome anythin i may face. i must remember that i can use the wisdom ive gained as knowledge that can provide good experience goin forward but remember that im not smarter than my alcoholism. ive learned the more i know, the more i dont know. ive learned that any sufferin enables me to discover a realistic spirituality, and it is okay to be confused, cause it gives me the ability to learn more about spiritual awareness. self-consciousness has taught me to appreciate the design of my life. true recovery is the life i lead, not the creed i profess. facin my inner truths allow me to heal. 1 day @ a time...