my daily reflections…

i feel like the best way for me to carry the message is to behave and act as the spiritual principles of recovery have taught me. this means buildin and maintainin a healthy relationship with my HP, self, and others. when i practice the principles of recovery in my life, not only do i feel better within, but the behaviors and actions i enact are seen by others, and most importantly, felt. emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual health wasnt somethin i was lookin for when i 1st came into the rooms. and they certainly didnt materialize overnight. all i wanted to know how to do was not drink and cause the shit storm that always seemed to follow me wherever i went. but as i continued to listen and learn about recovery, i began to do the things it teaches. these actions had an effect on my thinkin which helped me too. as my mind began to settle and the things i was doin werent so drastic, i could feel and sense peace of mind. times of quiet began to be somethin i sought. these things were seen by people and continue to be noticed as i live my life. i aint tryina say im some kind of saint, or some kind of dry shriveled up bump on a log, cause i still have fun and live life. all i want to convey is that livin life today isnt as borin as i once thought it would be early in my recovery. its nice to be approached and asked what it is that makes me such a fun, happy, peaceful person. its an opportunity to share my story, to carry the message as ive been taught to do all along. receivin the insight from my HP on how to react or not react, is another blessin that i get to show others. it feels good to be able to trust myself, and have people take notice of the confidence integrity has given me. i dont have to look outside myself for happiness or peace, it comes from within, and people see it through my eyes. discoverin who and what i am through the process of the 12 steps is an attention getter. ive experienced what it feels like to allow others to be themselves without over-reactin and takin it personally, and ownin my power to take care of myself. when i apply my recovery behaviors, i effectively carry the message. serenity isnt freedom from the storm; it is peace within the storm. when i rely on guidance from my HP, He enables me to match calamity with serenity. ive learned the stillness of God speaks louder than a choir of voices. 1 day @ a time...