my daily reflections…

early in my recovery my sponsor taught me that the best thing for me to do when i start to feelin full of self-pity or start sinkin into stinkin thinkin, i should immediately get right into service toward others. he told me that when i am workin with others, even if i dont say a word, merely just sittin quietly and listenin, that the answers to my problems would come and lessen my incessant need to want to sink into self. when i am with others, often my HP speaks to me through them, whether they are in recovery or not. relyin on Him to help me, i get the opportunity to grow away from my emotional problems so His perfect justice, forgiveness, hope, and love, can help me gain a healthy sense of bein. ive also learned through recovery, through the big book, on page 15, “...but i soon found that when all other measure failed, work with another alcoholic would save the day.” i mean, c’mon mannn, how can i reject or deny such sage suggestion? it has been my experience, since my recovery has begun, that when i follow the suggestions contained throughout recovery, that i have the opportunity to grow into the spiritual awareness that this thing we do freely offers. it takes me away from tryina play God, yet again, as i did so much in the days of doin my dirt, so i can become someone, and somethin, ive never been before. livin the change recovery gifts me with lets me become someone who shows through action, not words, how i am of service to my own personal program of recovery. when i do these simple things, like steppin away from self, i am livin and practicin the spiritual principle of step 12, service. i move away from tryin to control others, tryin to rely on others, or tryin to play God, so i dont continue the play of creatin chaos like i used to do. i get to be prepared for whatever temptation may come to me, and see clearly, with the help of my HP, what He helps me avoid when i go through my day later on. in my enjoyment of life, i get to reflect on His love for the world, and for me. im learnin to reflect before actin to be sure it isnt my alcoholism that is makin my decisions. and ive learned, all of recoverys suggestions are free, the ones i dont take are the ones i end up payin for. 1 day @ a time...