my daily reflections…

i live so much differently today than i ever did before my recovery began. if ya had asked me when i first came into the rooms what i thought my life would be like over 16-½yrs later, i wouldnt have been able to answer ya. i doubt i wouldve or couldve told ya what my reality is today. my life has taken on new meanin. i reckon i could live differently than i do today, but what i got today, i wouldnt trade. im at peace. what recovery has taught me is to use what ive learned about myself to help others. i get to share with them the loneliness i still suffer from sometimes. i get to share with them the relationships i have today that ive never had before. i get to share with them how though there are times my humanness may still affect me, i have solutions to it that dont degrade my character. i can be honest with others without tearin others down. these are just some of the gifts ive received. to watch others come into the rooms as broken as i once was, torn, confused, and scared, and show them that it gets better, is a blessin to me. today i have friends in recovery that have twice the time in recovery as i. they were the ones who got to watch me when i came in as i grew. now its my turn to watch newcomers come into the rooms and grow. i get to see them help others, i get to watch loneliness vanish from them, i get to see a fellowship grow up about them and have a host of friends. i get to have frequent contact with newcomers and experience a bright spot in my life. im still learnin, my life is still evolvin, and as each day goes by, i grow that much more in my recovery. i get to give what ive received, and from that gratitude, i get to receive even more. today im in a rightful place, and the works i do are made more effective by the grace of God. the adventure of recovery is somethin i get to share as others share theirs with me. im not blocked from the intimacy in my relationships as i once was. im not cut off from the innate wisdom that guides me in my actions. i get to express my feelins honestly so i may build relationships based on trust openin myself to Gods love for me. i get to show others how they can be happy, joyous, and free through simple acts of service. 1 day @ a time...