my daily reflections…

idk if many of ya’ll are like me, but, if there is any way to strike up emotions of anger in me, the quickest way, is to talk down to me. that shit ALWAYS fires me the fuck up. i learned through personal inventory that i had to use the solutions recovery teaches to move past those feelins when i sense them come on. that action toward me shuts me down, it turns me off, and i immediately become defensive. i also learned that if i dont like it, there are probably others who dont like that shit either. so, when i am speakin with another who may be speakin to me about recovery and wantin to know what i did, i dont do it. my sponsor didnt do it to me, nor did his sponsor do it to him, so i must also continue the practice. what my sponsor did do, was speak to me in a manner where he identified his alcoholism and used the correspondin spiritual principles to overcome his character defects and shortcomins. he showed me how the steps worked with him, just as his sponsor did for him. and from my best understandin, its how the program of recovery works. i aint the one to try to make what works, not work, so, it is to my best interest to do with others as my sponsor, and the big book, suggests. sharin with another my story, it is up to them to see if what my experience has been and how i used recovery to grow away from my patterns of alcoholic learned helplessness through the spiritual principles, will help them. not everybody ive met in recovery has had the same experiences i have, but i often find the emotions that made me react the way i did are much the same. so reachin out and expressin how i live today, usin the spiritual principles of recovery, givin my story away, i get to keep what ive been blessed with, so, i share my experience. the way of recovery is the way of service. when sharin my story, i get to practice step 12. i get to live and experience the spiritual home of peace, serenity, and contentment, within. as i grow in my recovery, i also grow in wisdom and tolerance, when i share it. by bein true to myself in the choices i make, i become the man that i admire. the impulsive, compulsive, repulsive, become the planned, easy goin, and beautiful. 1 day @ a time...