my daily reflections…

when i honestly reached out for help, it was provided. whether it was an act of providence or not, idk, but when i had finally had enough and was truly willin to go to any lengths to break my own will and follow the dictates of a Higher Power, He put people in my life to help me. they did what they could do, the rest was up to me. today, havin several years in recovery, it is my turn to be there for others if, or when, they honestly want the same answers i was seekin when i came in. willingness has to be a spiritual principle i follow for my own recovery. it is my hope that others receive somethin from my conviction to willingness as i did from others when i came into the rooms. i will do what i can for another in recovery as long as it does not jeopardize my own recovery. if there can be a positive side to selfishness, and i believe there is, this is one of them. im not gonna walk into a crack house or bar and start evangelizin recovery, but i will sit after a meetin with another and share my experience. im not gonna stand on a street corner in the red-light district and preach the tidins of recovery, but i will speak openly and clearly at conventions or meetins. i am willin to help as much as i can in regard to tellin another my experience before my recovery and showin em how i used the steps of recovery to get where i am today after my recovery began. ive brought meetins into jails and institutions, ive carried the good tidins of recovery when asked, and have even volunteered to do so. its simple to me, its what others did for me, it is what i must do for others. as simple as the solutions were for me, they were not easy. i understand this clearly. and am willin to help another as much as i can without bein a martyr or victimizin myself. my HP gives me the courage to speak up in a crowded meetin and lets me live the message i was privileged to receive. as i give i receive, but i dont receive unless i give. my HP helps me listen carefully and give as well as take so i may fully experience this gift of fellowship. i have found a solution and am properly armed with facts about myself, i have the confidence to share my recovery with another alcoholic and can usually strike a chord with them. however, until an understandin is reached, little or nothin can be accomplished. im not gonna waste my time on one who doesnt want it, when i know there are others who do. 1 day @ a time...