my daily reflections…

how effective and useful would it be if i relayed my story, what it was like, what happened, and what its like today, to someone i was tryin to help, castin lies and false pretense all over it? would i be practicin honesty or integrity? would i be helpin them or myself? when i sat with my sponsor he didnt do any of what i just mentioned. what he did do was pass on his story and experience in as honest a light as he could, even if what he had to say would make him less than desirable to someone who may not be an alcoholic. the shit he shared with me was honest and true, it helped me see the disease of alcoholism in my life. as ive worked with others, ive done the same. and to answer the question of, did it help him, helpin me, tellin his story as honest as he did? based on my own experience carryin the message, it helped him more than it helped me. i say this because he shared with me exactly what happened, and as he did, he stressed how spirituality had helped him change. honesty with those i help, helps me keep my story, keep my experience, a reality for myself. it helps me to continue to use what i have learned about myself through recovery, heal and fix me. it helps the one i may be tryin to help hopefully see how the emotions and feelins i felt are ones they too may have experienced. sharin with another how spirituality has helped me offers them an answer to the hole alcohol or drugs may have left when they stopped usin. after all, as i share my story with them, practicin spiritual principles, i get to grow my spirituality. helpin them, helps me. ive learned over the years that there is such a freedom and joy in knowin that i have the capacity to feel all my feelins and express them to another honestly. as today stretches before me, an unknown quantity of healin and life awaits as i share my story. though concerns will crowd upon me, the guidance i receive from my HP regardin the best action to take is always available to me. why not share this with others when i have the opportunity? today im not livin just to be sober; im livin to learn, to serve, and to love with a degree of honesty, tolerance, unselfishness, peace of mind, and love of which i once thought myself quite incapable. 1 day @ a time...