my daily reflections…

on such a day of thankfulness, Thanksgiving, i have a pretty good idea where i would be today if i hadnt been made aware of the opportunities to change the direction i was headed in life before my recovery began. i am thankful for the life i get to live today because of the recovery program my HP has graced me with. today it is not my goal or intention to harm the direction of this great program of recovery. it is my goal and intent, however, to show others that one can turn their life around and be successful usin a means as directed by the persuasion of their HP, just as i did. if i can be a conduit for God, by showin another how i was able to avert death and misery, i want to be that channel. idk what direction they may choose, but i do know the direction i chose to get where i am today. i feel it a responsibility toward my recovery and as a member of this thing we do to carry the message. it is not so much that i need to be broadcast on the national news or headlined in the mornin paper, as it is a humble want to pass onto others the gifts i have been gifted, as was done for me to put an end to my sufferin. i remember how that pain felt within. i feel like the best way for me to show thankfulness and gratitude is to be a humble servant. never do i want to, or aim to, harm the anonymity of another or this program, as my protection of the tradition of this thing we do states i shouldnt. but if i can help another by makin myself visible and available to those who still suffer, i am at peace with takin that step. with the force of spirit, i have the opportunity and ability to lead and guide another, creatin, shapin, and explainin a vision that offers forgiveness, hope, and love. as i help another, directed by what i perceive is my HPs will, my own path to clarity and purpose gets stronger so i may continue to be effective for another and myself. helpin another to build upon their own character assets and tear down the walls built by character defects and shortcomins by learnin new behaviors, is what helps me to realize even more of my own. it is an appreciation for the thankfulness and gratitude in action i have for the recovery my HP and this program have freely given me. when i can express my story and make a connection toward buildin a healthy relationship with another by remainin open to sharin the hell of doin my dirt, what the final straw was, and the ambrosial freedom recovery has given me, by takin a fearful, positive action to overcome my spiritual malady, i feel i have turned fantasy into reality. it is my spiritual awareness of thankfulness and gratitude, in action and behavior, that is revealed when i act accordingly. ty Lord fer thinkin bout me, im alive n doin fine. 1 day @ a time...