my daily reflections…

it is not my place to call another out durin a meetin, when i can get with them privately after the meetin. just as it is not my place to judge anothers program of recovery. just because i may live and practice the steps differently from another, it doesnt mean that my recovery is superior to theirs. i aint gonna try to story tell ya and say i aint ever judged anothers program of recovery, because i have. i have a responsibility to myself to look at and listen to how another may live the principles of recovery. it is also my responsibility to use what i learn from others and see if it may possibly be somethin that can strengthen my own program of recovery. it is when i judge anothers recovery negatively with an attempt to make them less than i, that i fail, decoratin my ego with what i feel is their failin. surely i have my beliefs from my own experience, knowledge, and wisdom, just as any other. and it really doesnt matter to me how another may get to the black parts of a page in the big book. i sho nuff prob didnt get to the black parts on a page in the book as any other. what is important to me is that another and/or myself do and live, as best as either can, what the black parts on a page from the big book says. protectin the program of recovery as best as i can, i get to live the 36 spiritual principles and receive the benefits of them just as another may, no matter how they or i got to the understandin of any of the principles. maybe i am wrong and have more learnin and evolvin to do, maybe, as long as i continue to practice and live, as my HP wills, interpretin and perceivin with guidance from my sponsor or those who have had experience protectin and preservin what the big book says, i will get to continue to learn from recovery in a healthy balanced way, as my HP and the program direct me. ive learned the program is not the fellowship, and neither is the fellowship the program. my sponsor taught me the fellowship may fail me, but the program never will. i understand that the fellowship may be filled with the unhealthy, frantic, behaviors of compulsion, obsession, addiction, and fanaticism, but with the gift of balance each member within the fellowship gets a chance to create their lives from these characters with the respect and quality of time. i am no different. when i decide to act and behave as i feel my HPs will is, i get the chance to exercise the positive assets i have grown and developed, hopefully bein an effective member of the fellowship. with the fellowship i get to walk along with others toward a path of recovery one step at a time, that helps the fellowship grow toward bein better for all. with an understandin that spirituality is not based on logic and is faith-driven, i get to remain loyal to my HP and to others. i get to gratefully live my life today, with some spiritual awareness, close to my HP and the others within the fellowship. 1 day @ a time...