my daily reflections…

my daily reflections... today i am grateful for the gift of recovery i have been given. it was the people in the rooms when i first came in, that showed me that i could be loved. it was they, the ones who had never known me, who passed onto me what they were so freely given themselves, unconditionally, without expectation of return, the love toward a fellow brother. i didnt know then that it was the love they were offerin that would help me crawl out of the pit of bitter morass, the self-pity and self-loathin i felt within had me lonely and kept me secluded, feelin unworthy of anything that could be good. but they were there, open to my presence and willin to offer what they had. as my recovery has grown and evolved over the years ive learned why i must do as they did me, and how to give that same unconditional gratitude and love to those who come into the rooms, new, and just as wore out as i was. today i get to feel just how that love, passed out unconditionally, is the apotheosis of the gratitude others offered me and the same i offer to others. and as i continue to grow emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually, it is not only newcomers who get to receive that gratefulness, it is all who i come into contact with. what a blessin it is to have been given such a gift that grows even when i may still sink into those times of self-pity and loneliness. for me, it is the want to give another, without reservation, unconditional love, that helps me to crawl out of those feelins. 1 day @ a time...