my daily reflections…

ive ran into personal problems i could not solve while ive been in recovery. after reachin out to my sponsor he has referred me to the big book. he has told me that when i get too wrapped up in my spiritual malady that i cannot be effective or useful to anybody, not even myself. what he suggests to me is that i reach out and be of service. he says that bein of service takes me away from me, it offers me an opportunity to listen to another, takin my focus off of me, placin myself in a position of usefulness for others. he says that when i am helpin another that the answers i am seekin for myself will come because im not tryin to outthink or overthink the problems i may be havin. i have tried this, even better yet, ive done this, and it works. the intuitive voice within speaks out of nowhere and the answers i have prayed for come to me while helpin others. it is one of the miracles that recovery offers. and, and, and, i get to live it. with simple faith ive discovered the way of life; it is with the way of faith. with the simple rules within recovery, i have solved personal problems which used to just baffle the shit outta me. carryin the message, in an effort to get out of joel and be of service to another instead of only helpin myself, works! the spiritual laws i find within the spiritual principles of recovery always work as they are posed to. they are a priceless reward. even when faced with answers that may cause me fear, when i take the time to be of service, i often get the opportunity to see the answers that take away the fear i may be havin. and even if i dont like what i may find out, there is a lesson somewhere within it that i may need to learn. change isnt always easy for anybody i reckon, but remainin wrapped up in it doesnt do any good for me, or anybody i may be around. i feel like its why its so important to step away from my personal problems and look out into the rooms, or even outside the rooms, and offer help to another. i get to dare to listen to my inner voice, my HP, with a new trust. it has been my experience that dynamic relaxed attention, droppin effort and struggle, creates the portal into findin the answers i need, and bein such centered, calm presence is what achieves full benefit and best results. today, its quite simple for me when i can surrender and give up the insanity of my spiritual malady, when i give my personal problems to my HP, actively go out and help another, takin time away from the squirrel cage in my head, i get to experience the return of sanity. i am, in a sense, either workin on recovery or im workin on a relapse. 1 day @ a time...