Yes the Big Book 12 Steps do refer to a person who is unfortunately ugh..well, (constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves). What does that even mean? A good description of it in my experience was when I was banging out meetings, going on commitments and setting up, cleaning up the hall. I was committed...

its been my experience that i will never graduate from recovery. i will never be able to stop livin toward the change it provides me in my life. i tried that method and it did not work, my self-will is too strong. the only way i can keep what i have been gifted is to...

as i endeavor to live attuned to the will of my HP, i must live a life that is in harmony with my fellows. this means that i work toward livin as spiritual life as possible. though the idea of the principles within recovery may be theorized and i may talk about em, they do...

i use the serenity prayer often. it is a prayer that offers me peace of mind when i am full of myself. whether its my ego or fear, anger or frustration, control or unmanageability, the serenity prayer reminds me just who i am. it humbles me remindin me that i am not God. that control...

cuz W T F !??? I am grateful for my education. That's not the problem. I am grateful for my insatiable lust for knowledge, and persistent tenacity for digging up truth. That's NOT the problem. The problem is, every effing therapist I've had is so fascinated with my intellect, that it distracts them (ALL OF...

recallin the stinginess and selfishness i uncovered through personal inventory, i remember not givin much of anythin away to anybody without the expectation of return. ya know, ya scratch my back, ill scratch yours. and notice how it was stated, ya scratch my back, first. it wasnt unlike me to try to be the first...

Chapter Five: Relationships Our ideas about relationships are often based in anything but reality, we want to believe that relationships somehow happen on their own, that we can step into a relationship like its a carnival ride and it will just take us. Just as we imagined the right combinations of drugs would make everything...

things ive learned about myself through recovery have been eye openin. as an active alcoholic, i was always lookin for a handout, never tryin to give somethin i had. i always took from others as they were the ones givin anonymous gifts of kindness. i couldnt see my way to be such a person of...

it has been proof to me, no matter how hard i may try, beg, or share my e.s.h., that the only one i can keep sober and in recovery is myself. this doesnt mean that i dont try to give away the gifts i have received though. sometimes, the simplest of gestures are the best...

givin forgiveness, hope, or love to another never came as a thought to me when i was out doin my dirt. it couldnt, because i knew it would cost me, in some way. it may even let someone in, so they could see who i was. so why not make em pay if they wanted...