my recovery hasnt come to me in multitudes of weeks, months, or years. though i may have been livin it, as best as i can, for several years, it has come to me 1 day @ a time. one of the best tokens i ever received wasnt one for multiple years, months, or weeks, it...
part of forgiveness for me is the ability to give it, whether or not it is reciprocated. this is where growth within happens for me. it is lettin go of the petty, immature, resentment, anger, and fear, that used to guide my life before my recovery began. since i have been able to learn how...
Sure, Step 12 carry the message? Practice these 12 Step spiritual principles in all my affairs? As I learned a bit about principles, when and how to give or how to offer myself, pretty much anything that seemed to offer unconditional support to anyone was the proper use of my will and got the green...
today i get to live all the promises throughout the big book. it has taken me time and a lot of very hard work on self. i understand and know today that i could not have done it alone. i needed the help of this thing we do to get where i am today. through...
When I came around AA for the last or near last time years ago like 1981ish? I had no 12 Steps. Actually there were no Big Book 12 Step meetings according to AA's New York office. I know this to be factual. When Big Book 12 Step (BBS) formed the first meeting, we had difficulty...
as my sponsor pointed out areas in my inventory where selfishness had driven the decisions i had made, i couldnt help but feel the weight of the emotional pain of self-deprecation i had always used, drop down on me. the self-imposed weapon i had used all my life to give reason to shut out the...
When it came to finding a new way to live, it was really hard for me to figure out the first three steps. There was this whole, 'God' thing to consider. When I was new to recovery, I didn't trust anyone. I doubted myself to stay clean. I had a lot of self doubt and...
resentment took me to places within i never meant to live. i served self, not the HP i serve today. i thought that material wellbein would provide me with the happiness i thought my life was posed to be. and it did at first, but that happiness from the outside, i found out, didnt last....
Page 15 Allowing ourselves to be happy can be a surprisingly long process. It always continues in one way or another. Some of us fear contentment because it might lead to complacency. Others of us fear that if we are ever content, there will be nothing left to try for. Learning what truly makes us...
Page 14 Caring for our spiritual condition is like cleaning the house. If we want to benefit the work must be ongoing. The better we do at keeping up with the daily routines, the less painful the big cleaning is when it comes, and the less often we have to undertake a major overhaul. We...