realizin that when i am filled with my spiritual malady that i have the characteristic of a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelins of omnipotence, intent on maintainin at all costs my inner integrity, isnt somethin i am proud of. but if i am to use what recovery has taught me, humility, i get to...
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today i am open enough to let somethin infiltrate my life rather than interfere with it. as i look back upon my time in recovery, i cannot say there was an “ah ha” moment when the distinction between the two happened, but i am aware of each today. as hope grew within in my early...
today, i need others in my life to help me create the life i wish to live, i simply need ya’ll. without ya’ll in recovery, i dont think i could make recovery happen in my life. i tried in the past to get along without others and look what it got me, writin a post...
recovery has given me much, things i could never had had if i hadnt had the desperation which produced a moment of clarity that brought about the decision to change. the mere decision wouldnt have meant shit unless i made the effort to commit the action of openin the door to the halfway house i...
today i get to watch others come into the rooms as i once did, shaken, scared, with the loss of any hope. i cannot forget how i felt in those early days of sobriety. i dont know if those that come into the rooms today truly feel as i did when i came in, but...
when i came into the rooms, i had no idea if gettin sober would work for me. hell man, i didnt truly even know if i wanted to get sober, i just wanted all the shit i was livin to stop. i was tired and wore out from all the chaos i didnt even know...
for years i blamed other people for the shit that happened to me. since childhood it was always someone elses fault. whether it was shit i had no possible control over or shit i did consciously, the results or outcomes were never a direct result of my actions. and if there were consequences to my...
durin the progression of my alcoholism, i developed the traits of ad hockery, the reliance on temporary solutions rather than on consistent, long-term plans. these idiosyncrasies, dishonesty, and lack of tolerance grew beyond me as i allowed my alcoholism to take root. as the progression of my alcoholism advanced so did my false sense of...
when i remain honest in my recovery i understand i cant do this recovery thing alone. my past experience allows me the knowledge and wisdom of such an irresponsible idea. if i could have done it back then, before my recovery this time began, i guess i wouldnt be livin this time in recovery. fortunately...
https://youtu.be/yB1DLphTxn0 "Just for Today" January 25 An added gift “We see it happening among us every day. This miraculous turnabout is evidence of a spiritual awakening.” Basic Text, p. 51 ––––=–––– We watch them walk in to their first meeting defeated, their spirits broken. Their suffering is obvious, and their desire for help even more...