My name's Michelle and I'm an addict. My clean date is just for today, but the last day I actually put a mood or mind altering substance in my body was April 16, 2019. I have been a member of Narcotics Anonymous since April 2010. I am what is referred to as a "chronic relapser"....
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Sunday-December-6th-2020 Wanting Love and being denied is a rejection so strong and painful that the topic should be Romance and relapse. I hate being alone. Tired of being alone. I crave nothing more then a relationship and Yet dad after day there is no one there. No one who can wrap me in their arms...
before my recovery began i had no concept of emotional stability. i ran my life on immediate emotion and tried to control it as my self-will saw fit. i thought i was the one who was to exact perfect justice, mercilessness, and hate because that was what i felt within, and by God, if it...
with a new state of consciousness and havin had a spiritual awakenin as the result of the 12 steps, i get to try to carry the message to alcoholics and practice these principles in all my affairs. i could never have told ya’ll when i first came into the rooms how 15 ½ years later...
i cannot keep this gift of recovery all to myself and expect to continue to receive the vast gifts it offers me. i must continue to be responsible for my recovery by remainin open and willin so that when anyone, anywhere, reaches out for help, i can be a hand that is always there. it...
i can recall an earlier attempt at tryin to get into the flow of what the 12 steps offer. it was my 2nd try (today, i continue to live my 4th honest attempt since april 18, 2005). this one particular meetin i went to i stated that i had read through the steps and had...
with the spiritual awakenin i have been gifted as a result of these steps, ive been offered the courage and strength to get my ass busy and share the joy of life ive collected with those who still may be sufferin. service toward others by carryin the message is the essence of this step. and...
the gifts i receive as a result of the 12 spiritual steps and the remainin 24 principles of the traditions and concepts, give me the courage and strength to live my spiritual awakenin and carry the message to alcoholics, while practicin the principles in all my affairs as best as i can. this is not...
my sponsor taught me early in my recovery about anonymity and the potential positive aspects & negative hazards of it. he told me that when i remain an anonymous member of this thing we do, i receive the protection from it that i deserve. he also said that i can protect the program by not...
it is not my place to call another out durin a meetin, when i can get with them privately after the meetin. just as it is not my place to judge anothers program of recovery. just because i may live and practice the steps differently from another, it doesnt mean that my recovery is superior...