i am much like anyone else who has a level of fear toward change. even if it is somethin i feel will benefit me in some way, change, causes me fear. change is often found with a degree of the unknown or somethin i feel like i have no control over. when i think about...
one of my fave readins in the big book starts on the bottom of page 60 through the middle of page 62. in this readin i find myself all over the place. my natural, normal, human desires driven unchecked, without interruption, that i justified because i thought they were good, placed others and myself in...
with certain anamnesis, i can recall the agglomeration of problems i had when i walked into the halfway house that i started this journey of recovery in. they were so self-centered; i was so full of self-pity i despaired ever solvin em all myself. i had an opportunity to change all of that though. with...
I saw this on a discussion thread recently here and it got me thinking. Now, I've been an avid Zoom meetings attendee now for what, the better part of a year? I have to say it's been great for me really. I simply show up on time with proper codes, bring up my stage presentation...
the shift in emotional maturity i experienced was gradual. it wasnt anythin that happened instantly, or even overnight. in fact, it took months. i couldnt feel it as an over powerin sensation. maybe it was cause i was so used to fulfillin self-will, maybe it was cause i was too self-centered, maybe it was cause...
I Am Your Disease You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend, Wishes of misery and heartache I send, I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees, I’m the devil inside you, I am your disease. I’ll invade all your thoughts, I’ll take hostage of your soul, I’ll become your...
Chapter Three: A Spiritual Path Our primary action is surrender, and we come back to it every day. There is always rooms to let go a little more. There is great freedom in understanding that we always have the option to surrender. In the beginning we may be confused and think we need to surrender...
Chapter One: Living Clean It's not recovery that is painful; our resistance to it is what hurts. When we step away from our recovery and act against our beliefs-that hurts. Using is about distortion. We are drawn to things that distort our perception, from drug use to resentment. Sanity is livings in harmony with reality....
i couldnt live with myself anymore when i came into the rooms. everythin i had tried to do to change by my own efforts failed me. as i think back, i can feel that depression, it was so dark, i wanted it to stop so bad, but everythin i had tried didnt or wouldnt work....
it says on page 76 in the big book that if i am unwillin to give my HP my character defects and shortcomins that i must continue to try to become willin. it says on page 143 that to get over drinkin will require a transformation of thought and attitude. i understand that indispensable means...