i, alone, am absolutely unable to stop the chaos in my life on the basis of self-knowledge. it has been proved to me through work and practice of the 12 steps that my will power and self-knowledge will never help in the strange mental blank spots when i am tempted to let my self-will run...
Often we have to face some type of crisis during our recovery, such as the death of a loved one, financial difficulties or divorce. These are realities of life, and they don’t go away just because we get clean. Some of us, even after years of recovery, found ourselves jobless, homeless or penniless. We entertained...
it is a true statement that while i was out doin my dirt i thought the only one that i was hurtin was me. though i could feel and see the relationships in my life bein disturbed by the things i was doin, the selfishness and self-centeredness i nurtured, could not see past me. i...
part of the process of healin self was my willingness to approach another and make an honest amends for the ways i had harmed them. a simple, “i apologize”, would not fix the problems i had within nor repair the damage i had done to the ones who loved me the most. i had to...
August 13 I can love myself When I remember all the times I got high, all the junk I ate, all the sleep I lost, all the anger I kept inside (and the times I hurt myself through a rage turned inward), I realize that I have not loved myself much. It scares me to...
Meetings go on everyday with or without me. It's up to me to participate or not. One of my many Alcoholic problems is being irrational when it comes to alcohol especially. This critical point was smashed home one night at an AA meeting. Passed the point of return on my own I can't determine what...
when i use what ive been given through the principles of recovery, ive found that the relationships in my life get better. keepin a keen eye upon my behaviors and thinkin and amendin them when im startin to get wrapped in self, helps me to live the character changes ive set goals to live. forgiveness,...
My Thoughts for Today I had been involved in ITR during the start of COVID- which was my only saving grace during a horrific time in my life. Trying to leave a toxic abusive situation, living in a shitty neighborhood, surrounded by people whom didn't have my best interest at heart, and being a single...
the 8th step inventory helped me to see how the character defects and shortcomins i learned about myself in the 4th step personal inventory played a part in the resentments and selfishness i had. this 2nd inventory allowed me to see how i had used those deficiencies and drawbacks to harm others and myself. i...
freedom from fear is what i receive when i take the time to do the moral inventory of step 8. havin learned from the prior spiritual principles how to use each one effectively, with this inventory and my sponsors help, i get to put what i find in its proper context. its no longer what...