i have gained much understandin in my recovery. anythin that has ever been anythin good for me has taken me time to acquire. whether it be college degrees, employment skills in mechanical engineerin, or even recovery. each of these personal successes were not just handed over, each took years of practice to be able to...

i reckon i wouldnt be human if i didnt subject myself to the juicy narrative of a tale handed down and rolled around for a while, gettin juicier as it went from one to another. bein human, this type of talk has personal benefits for me. each of these pleasures, malicious glee, smugness, a feelin...

over and over, throughout the Big Book, constructive review of self, thoughtfully introspective self-examination, prayer, and meditation, are expressed to help remind me my disease of alcoholism isnt a one and done affair. it provides me with ample sound reasonin why a strategic foresight for continued holistic health is essential in maintainin my personal program...

i may have stopped usin alcohol as a means to an end for bafflin events in life but it does not mean my disease of alcoholism has taken a break. i am just as alcoholic as ive ever been without its use. selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear are still characters that can create shortcomins which...

fear is most def an activator for me. especially when it touches somethin within i have not or do not want to face. when outside, unexpected, aggression is sensed within me, my natural desire for fight or flight steps right up and i want to enact an exact response. whether by word, behavior, or action,...

the discipline required to resolutely commit to the 12 spiritual principles of recovery are not easy, as simple as they may sound; this has been my experience. the development of self-restraint has taken time for the progress ive needed to feel somewhat at ease. today i get to use it regularly unless reeses cups, fruity...

i aint gonna even try to say the world around me dont get to me, coz it does. if i want to live with any kind of inner peace or serenity, i must dig deep when these times arise and work the practice recovery has shown me are the solutions toward inner peace and serenity....

i must pay mind to how im feelin within. justification or rationalization of emotions which are harmful to me dont stay within me; no matter how hard i fight em. these sentiments eventually flow out directed at others who do not deserve the atrocities i can create. when i am self-aware of whats goin on...

as i have grown in my recovery my response to catalysts which used to send me deep into chaos and bewilderment, keepin me baffled, in search of self-willed resolution, have waned. i do not shoot from the hip with words, behavior, or action today. recovery has taught me healthy solutions so i do not make...

for me today, perseverance equals success, happiness, joy, self-love, and better yet, freedom from too much self. when in the days of doin my dirt i would rely upon alcohol to give me the freedom to realities i could not face nor manage, today i get to use the simplicity of recovery to overcome my...