it is so very important i keep with the fellowship of this thing we do. these are the people who i get to garner the program from. these are the people who show me how to live through lifes peaks and valleys usin the spiritual principles of recovery so i may become and remain a...

i reckon ifins i wanna go to givin the brotherly love step 8 teaches me, i cannot do it alone, full of self. as i have learned much of the character and shortcomins i grew and evolved over the years of doin my dirt and how i used em as battle axes against the world...

for me, the idea that there was another who may suffer from the disease of alcoholism like i did was unthinkable. as i fought for a reason to try anythin my ego would allow me, i only returned to alcohol. its power over me had made me powerless. how could anyone had ever felt like...

recovery has proved to me how balance can be an affirmative and rewardin manifestation of action which has the power to alter the relationships in my life for the better. it has educated me on how to practice its spiritual principles, so they become learned behaviors which exhibit an all-around altruistic benevolence. its concepts do...

for years i relied on people, places, and material items to make me feel whole within. i was in a constant search for inner harmony and emotional balance from anythin outside of me. of course there were fleetin hints of each, unfortunately for me, i found alcohol and became dependent on its rich source of...

back in the days of doin my dirt there was never a thought of freely givin, unless i was to receive somethin in return or workin some angle. and this was nothin that became known without doin what recovery teaches. to learn humility recovery required that i finally surrendered some of the self-willed desires i...

emotional freedom/balance did not precede psychological or spiritual balance. the equilibrium of all were only preceded by a transformation in behavior. when i started changin the way i was actin, my psychological condition started to gradually change. with a change in thinkin, i was able to open my mind and become willin to try to...

my initial 4th and 8th step personal moral inventorys enlightened me to the many problems i had created for others and myself. i was able to perceive, then understand with the help of my sponsor, how selfishness, self-seekin, and fear, were the cause of the harms i had executed. lookin beyond what others had done,...

i wish i could say i was cured of my alcoholism. that normal human emotions did not affect my life on a daily basis. but i cannot. sometimes the emotions i buried back in the days of doin my dirt come to the forefront of my mind and i remember em like it was yesterday....

my sponsor at the time of my 1st 8th step inventory asked me what harm i had done to myself while out doin my dirt. i can recall this bein a surprisin question. i dont believe i ever thought how the shit i had done to others affected me til the later days of my...