i wish i could say i always feel like im winnin, but thats not my story. i get to go through lifes drama livin through its difficulties, ebbs, and flows. sometimes the pains of failure can bring on self-pity, self-delusion, and frustration. from these times, i get to search for different ways to focus on...
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i had been taught how to live lifes journey in my youth. i had been taught by my ma, the rights, and wrongs of a clean life. i had learned through church how to live a righteous lifestyle, and social norms taught through schoolin, but none of those teachins were what i wanted growin up....
its been my personal experience, and by watchin others, i cannot continue to receive a daily reprieve if i dont maintain my spiritual condition. by my own admission, before this time in recovery, i failed to keep contact with my HP and followed my self-will thinkin i could save myself from the alcoholic pit; i...
the symbol of the circle and the triangle probably would not mean much to me if i was not practicin the spiritual principles of recovery. havin succumb to the power of alcohol and admitted and surrendered to my alcoholism, this symbol of the legacies of the program i choose to follow for a life managin...
healthy personal action changes things for me! there are few in my life outside of recovery who would ever get, or understand, how destructive obsessions can influence my behavior, action, or thinkin. this mornin at my HG meetin another and i were speakin of how honestly spillin my emotions to another keeps me comin back....
throughout my time in this thing we do ive been blessed to have a lot of contact with both newcomers and old timers. weve shared our storys together and have been able to learn how to practice the principles of recovery and love w/out strings when we are out livin our lives away from the...
gratitude for what ive been gifted does enact a full and thankful heart which in turn is lived through with behavior and action. and unlike my early recovery when i had to fake it to make it, today with time and experience in this thing we do, the gratitude, behavior, or action does not have...
for a time into my recovery i did not have the privilege of seein my children or any other family members. though i was able to speak to em over the phone, i had no physical contact with em. this was a blessin in disguise coz the focus i needed to have was on fixin...
one of the 1st questions i was posed in my early recovery was what my priorities were. brilliantly asked by my sponsor, it was a gauge of my alcoholic thinkin. of course, with this trick line of questionin, i answered as i had thought throughout the days of doin my dirt. i was the 1st...
through my own experience and the personal happenins ive been told by others in the rooms, there is no way i can entertain any lurkin notion that i will ever be immune to alcohol, or my alcoholism. my own misadventures with both durin the days of doin my dirt demonstrate this reality. recovery has provided...